Turn Up The AC

Out Of The Fire

March 17, 2021 AC Fischer, Alexis Arralynn Season 1 Episode 68
Turn Up The AC
Out Of The Fire
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Turn Up The AC
Out Of The Fire
Mar 17, 2021 Season 1 Episode 68
AC Fischer, Alexis Arralynn

What is Hell, and why don't I want to escape it? This isn't going where you probably think it's going...

Special thanks to Alexis Arralynn for reading this episode for me while I try to recover my voice!...

Be sure to check out my other podcasts When The Bough Breaks and What I Like About You...

If you'd like to record your own episode of Turn Up The AC, send me an email to find out how [email protected]...

Thanks to itsjustnikia for introducing this episode!

Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/acfischerpod)

Show Notes Transcript

What is Hell, and why don't I want to escape it? This isn't going where you probably think it's going...

Special thanks to Alexis Arralynn for reading this episode for me while I try to recover my voice!...

Be sure to check out my other podcasts When The Bough Breaks and What I Like About You...

If you'd like to record your own episode of Turn Up The AC, send me an email to find out how [email protected]...

Thanks to itsjustnikia for introducing this episode!

Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/acfischerpod)

If you do not change direction, you might end up where you are heading.

~Lao Tzu

Sometimes I’m undeniably heading in the wrong direction. Sometimes, that direction isn’t heading toward the wrong destination so much as going in circles to avoid leaving a familiar comfort zone. Sometimes, that familiar and comfortable place isn’t the paradise I percieve it to be. It’s actually my own personal Hell but I’m so busy looking at silver linings that I miss the clouds.

I want to be clear that I’m not talking about Hell as the place where a guy in a red spandex suit pokes damned souls with a pitchfork. I’m talking about any situation involving generous portions of misery, torment, turmoil, uncertainty, abuse, or whatever else I just can’t endure.

The problem with the kind of Hell I’m describing is that it’s not typically that bad in the day-to-day. Days or even months can go by without feeling any real sting. 

This, in my experience, is a frustrating place. When things are bad – really bad, my impulse is to leave. But when the dust of a bad experience settles, I see all the good things that make up the majority of the landscape. Leaving a view like that just never seems to feel like the right thing...

So, I travel in circles. Always taking in the scenery. Always looking at what’s wonderful about the place. Always turning my attention away from the things that I don’t like or can’t live with. With so much good, there’s no sense in focusing on what’s bad, right?

I’m a person who loves road trips. I’m also a person with a terrible sense of direction. Whenever I leave the house, I have my GPS going so that I can avoid getting lost. Even if I’m just out for a casual drive, I like to have the GPS set to guide me home. When I’m ready, I don’t want getting back to be a problem.

I think running circles in my own personal Hell is a lot like that. Maybe I don’t use a literal GPS but there is a part of my mind that points me back no matter how far away I go. When things are bad, I take a break. Once I’ve calmed down, I just have to follow the prompts home.

It feels good to be back in familiar surroundings. At least it feels good until the next time I need to escape.

Oscar Wilde said that “We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.”

I don’t want to live in Hell but I don’t want to give it up either.